What? Sorry I wasn't listening. Satan just walked in the door.

i got a spray tan today, and i got my hair cut!!
it's such a shock. i haven't had my hair this short since i was little. i grew it out in 8th grade and it's stayed at relatively the same length since.
well. till now.
i'm imagining it's going to take some getting used to, but i like it. :D

so there's this UBER hot girl at my school.
and she's like..UBER HOT.
that's about it.
i mean she's nice and all that shit.
but she's like a total babe.
a TOTAL BABE.

and i just heard she did stuff with some girl last year.
and i'm like whaaaa?
so i just ask her about it. because i have her number obviously. it's cause i work wonders, ya know.
anyways. so i ask her about it.
and.
it's true.
and.
aaaahhhh....

she's just said she doesn't know whether she's bi or not.
and i seriously only have one thing to say about this:


HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!

so, the only french teacher here at EHS got an offer in Wyoming to be an ESL helper.
and her son, Quintin, who's only four and has been having a lot of problems with speech and hearing, is the reason she took it.
they have more programs for him. more ways for him to get help. and less travelling and missing work for her. which is good.

but she's leaving for Wyoming. and she was really nervous telling us today.
and i think i kinda made it worse because i was going to be her aide next year and i asked her who i was going to t.a. for next year.
she kinda sniffled and said she didn't know.
D:

this is sad.
we're throwing a party for her.



in other news:
A's birthday. i got her a chai, 15$ gift card, and a cute hat.
or i thought it was cute. not sure if she thought so. its green and it says "earth day is every day". i liked it.

my "computer literacy" teacher is head of War Whoops. which is the longest running radio show in the state of Nevada and is hosted by students at my school. it's just a club, basically. but it takes 5th hour also. i'm like her favorite in first hour so she kinda forced this application on me. it's cool though. i actually thought about it and i think it might be fun. i think it'd be cool to learn about manipulating sounds on a computer or something. that'd be cool. :D

mr. long wants me to be head of video next year for yearbook. the original plan was to help tayler and ashlee do picture editing and layout stuff, but i guess we need someone to do video. i don't think i'd mind but that would mean spending the rest of my time this year in that class talking with ERIN.
and she's just a fucking ray of sunshine.

so here's a story.

on April 18, 2008. i lost the only girl i would ever consider as my best friend.
i'm being serious.
and why? you'd never guess.
boys.

for real.
girls may be poison,
but boys are death.


i think this is why i was so afraid to befriend boys when i was younger.
that seems so off because i'm gay, but i seriously just didn't want to be around guys. not even as friends.
now i do, seeing as girls are ridiculously stupid. boys are more laid-back and straight forward. more athletic, so we actually do things instead of sitting around talking shit. it's great fun.
but anyways.

this is what i think i was afraid of: the bisexuals.
Bisexuals aren't my favorite anyways, in fact, they're worse than straight girls.
for the most part, obviously. i'm not speaking for all bisexuals of the world here. just my experiences.
this included.

so, boy meets girl. have a great time.
sorry kids, good things aren't forever. it ends.
stay friends. that's good. at least it's not awkward? of course not.

so, girl ruins boy's friendship with other boy.
or at least tries to.
boys' friendship is too strong for girl. girl backs off.

so, girl goes to other girl.
other girl that both the boys hang with.
other girl that likes girls. that's known her forever.
that is her best friend since 7th grade.

fine, right?
well girl likes this girl she's just gone to.
girl that's friends with the boys, doesn't care much.
she's not interested in anyone too badly.

so, girl that left the boys wants more with the other girl.
other girl says no. she doesn't want to hurt her guy friends.
even if those boys are over it and have moved onto other girls.
other girl doesn't want to do anything and doesn't want to seem like a stealer.



ruined.

people on the postsecret sight talk all the time about how they read the secrets and find a secret that is their's also.
i think i finally found mine.
...sort of.