You looked a lot better from far away.

14 pills of aspirin is a chronic overdose.

and since when is aspirin so bad?
IT'S ASPIRIN!
yes a pain killer. but it's not fucking cocaine or anything, it's fucking aspirin.

jesus i feel so fucking stupid here.
everyone i'm talking to is just like "uhh yeah becca. 14 pills is a lot. didn't you read the label?"
no i did not read the fucking label. why would i? it's not like i haven't taken aspirin before.
just don't take like 8 pills all at once. i didn't do that. okay fine no overdose.

wrong.

last night i just felt weird. it's way hard to explain.
just weird.
ringing in my ears. and when i touched things...it was just weird.
like some sort of semi-numb area was surrounding me and making it so whenever i touched something it was kind of like a..soft touch.
it's too hard to explain. and at the very beginning i was just like ehh whatever i'm tired i guess.

then my mom came by. and then she got pissed.
obviously, right?
did anyone here know there's a difference between an ACUTE overdose and a CHRONIC overdose?
well i didn't. i thought overdose was just a fucking overdose. too many pills you die from it.
wrong.
too many pills over a long period of time may keep you alive, but it's still an overdose.

and i have to ask this: since when has aspirin been so bad? it's aspirin! it's right in your cabinet in your kitchen! i keep aspirin in my bag for track and cross country!
IT'S ASPIRIN!
why, because this drug is so powerful, why is this so easy to get to?
it's not an over the counter drug, everyone takes aspirin. why is this dangerous drug so easy to get to?

all we learn about in school is "don't drink alcohol" or "don't do weed".
soooo many people have never done weed. soooo many people have never drank alcohol.
everyone takes aspirin. and maybe someone's thinking "well you should've read the label, idiot".
well, SORRY. it's not like i took 14 pills all at once. i'm not that stupid. it's just aspirin. don't think i wasn't thinking logically because i was.


jesus. i didn't want to take my hydrocodone from the doctor because the night before yesterday i puked it up. it made me feel nauseous and lightheaded and stuff. i didn't like that, did i?
so i took aspirin yesterday instead. fine whatever. it's ASPIRIN.

fuck.